So I probably should have mentioned this before, but there are times when I am writing a blog that I write a little walk away, write a little more, then walk away. Sometimes my minds not working at that moment, or I don't want to forget something, or I don't have time to sit and write the whole thing right then. So sometimes if I get off a subject or don't make sense it is because of this reason, at least that is my excuse anyway.
Anyway, yesterday was a great way to spend a casual holiday. I got up took my shower, ran to the store, and made some coleslaw for the memorial get together at our friends the Detmers. The kids of course had a great time swimming and playing with the kids. The adults had too much fun laughing, and talking over watermelon margaritas. Eric made amazing pulled pork and we feasted on that yummy salads, and dips. I took my cake balls, and they seemed to be a hit. You can't go wrong with cake balls thats for sure! When we got home, we were all beat!! The kids ate, got there jammies on and hit the hay. I went to bed, checked my email and was out! Jonny followed right behind me. I tried to get him to take today off (though I am always trying to get him to take the day off), but he wouldn't cause it is always too hectic to go back to work and iron things out when he is gone for just a day. Now that he is a manager he has even more, and more responsibilities. Although he is stretched to the limit he was born to manage. I woulda thrown the towel in on the very first day, noooo thank you! Jonny loves the challenges, he is an amazing decision maker, and knows exactly how to delegate. He is on their level, because he has been on that level, yet he knows how to make his bosses happy. He is a born leader, unlike his wife lol. I am happy to NOT lead anyone. I will do my thing, my way, you do yours however and whenever you want. Don't ask me to make any decisions, or what to do, or where to go, cause I will either, tell you "I don't care" or take an hour to decide, and change my mind.
I mean when I go shopping it takes me an hour to decide if I REALLY want it or not. I will put it in the cart, and by the time its time to time to check out I will have changed my mind and not want it. Jonny's theory: "buy it, if you don't like it when you get home take it back." That is just a hassle to me lol. Don't get me wrong I'm not weak... well not anymore, I used to be weak, I just wanted someone else to decide for me. Now I don't want to decide, because I don't want to regret the decision. I know its ridiculous. Anyway, sense marrying Jonny, I have gotten stronger, have more opinions, and see things differently. Not to say that I will give you my opinion.. unless you ask me. Even if you ask me, I probably won't tell you all of it. Why? Because I don't want a rebudule (sp) on it, or to hear what you think of my opinion. I don't like arguments,or confrontations. Most of the time I feel its a waste of negative time, and won't change any ones opinion, and most likely they won't change mine. Unless it comes to my husband. We don't have a lot of arguments, but when we do its something that matters, and one of us always comes out seeing the other ones side a little better. Jonny taught me how to argue. Really! I don't like it, so I would shut down, in any other situations with anyone else. I f I argued with them over an opinion it didn't change anything. I was afraid to say something back, so I didn't say anything at all. Jonny taught me how to speak my mind, and mean it. If you are going to live with someone that matters to you, then they should know what you think and how you feel, and vise versa. Jonny matters, so it makes a difference. Not to say nobody else matters of course they do, but chances are I'm not going to change any ones life, if I don't like a movie and they do. I usually just listen to their opinion, if they didn't like it, my response is "oh I liked it" thats it, no further. They have their reasoning and I have mine. We came from two different backgrounds, with different sense of humors, and different attitudes. I appreciate others thoughts, but usually its not going to change my thinking. I can always see why they would like something or someone, even though I don't. I always try to put myself in there shoes, and understand what they are saying, but it doesnt mean I am going to agree with it, I just see it through their eyes. Thankfully we all have different opinions, and ways of looking at the world, or this place would be REALLY boring! God made some of us fisty and some of us not a bit of fistiness. Now as an adult I except every being of me! Good things and bad, I was given these traits for a reason. I handle things differently from you. I am who I am because of the spirit I was givin' and the people I grew up with. I don't like negativity but that doesn't mean I am never negative. I just try to push it out of the way and move on. Jacie will come home and say "Mommy, I had a bad day" thats when I look at her and say "Really?" "Are you sure you had a bad day?".. thats when she realizes who she is talking to and say's "ok, I had a lot of bad moments today." I'm trying to teach them that we don't have bad days, we have bad moments. I refuse to give the devil all of the day that God has granted us. I woke up, and walked in the bathroom with both of my feet, and brushed my teeth with my hands and arms. I kissed my kids good morning. I am breathing and smiling and choose to be happy. You will have bad moments, but you have to recognize that there is good in the world everyday! Now I do believe in bad days. When my uncles, grandmothers, father in law, and mother in law died, those were bad days. Though we know they have gone home to God, we mourn that they won't be here to share so much for so long. September 11th was a bad day. Though the day was not rainy there was a gloom for weeks. But the day your car breaks down, or you get a kidney stone or break a nail, even all in one day.. you can not give it all to bad, look for good in everything! I know I sound corny and I'm defiantly not always in a wonderful mood, and happy all of the time. But like I say if you push negative it will push you back, if you embrace positive it will love you back. Give your woes to God, I can't fix, only he can. If he doesn't at that moment, trust me there is a lesson in it. Of all the lessons my Mom taught me, this was THE most valuable to me! This is what got me through many woes through the 3 high schools I went to. God may not always answer your prayers when you want him to, but when you get through that time you will see that you've learn a great lesson from it. Now, again I am not all happy go lucky all of the time, but I am not going to go around telling everyone how miserable I am. What good does that do? It just burden's that other person, they have enough problems of their own. Now, if you have a good friend, and you need to get things off of your chest and talk about it, and let them help you see its not all bad, and your not all bad, I am totally for that. You should never keep things in. BUT, that doesn't mean you go around to every person you see and tell them your woes, so that they are burden. That just tells me you are looking for sympathy from everyone. I don't go around shedding sorrow on others, in fact I will not share every part of myself with anyone except Jonny. Why I trust Jonny, I live with Jonny, I get Jonny, and he completely gets me, I love him, oh how I love him, I truly believe that our creator made Jonny just for me. Isn't that so selfish and conceited of me? I know it is, but its hard to imagine Jonny with anyone else, we are so suited for each other. What I lack Jonny makes up for, and what he lacks (he won't admit) I think I make up for. Don't get me wrong, we can drive each other bonkers at times because who wouldn't when you live with someone, but usually its pretty chill in our house. (Oh and I also have two sisters and a Mom I occasionally rant, on and on to)
And don't look at me like "oh she's just perfect and her life is just perfect?" Nooo, nothing is perfect and only Jesus is perfect! Don't make me feel guilty for loving, my husband, getting along with him, or my parents or my sisters! I am so sick of feeling guilty for things like that. I think everyone needs to chill about thinking everyone elses life is better than there own, get over it! Ok, that is my rant about that, I won't even get into any more about how I feel about that!! I digress.. moving on. Anyway this whole blog started about our weekend and I got on a rant, really this is very unlike me. I feel like my blog is my soap box, and I can just rant, without being interrupted lol. This could be dangerous!! lol.. Anyway I am getting tired of this blog for now, and I have to go pick up the kids from school. Count down to summer begins. I told Jack "only 10 days left!!" He quickly responded "NINE DAYS!!!" .. he's right, only 9 days left!! whoohooo!! I'm out!
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