Because you care..

So because you care... you REALLY care what I did this weekend, I am going to tell. Only because you really wanna know.. and care..



This of course is Jack enjoying the ride to Brians baseball game, Saturday mornin'!



Jacie is in style as always..


Breanna and Alison at Brians game, Breanna was watching her brother and catching up on her book report with Alisons Kindle..




There's the good lookin' pitcher out there on the mound..


Ok, so I went for a ride Thursday and had to take some pictures of things that remind me every day why I LOVE where I live..

The farms remind me that I'm not in Orange County anymore.

But when I get back in town, the palm trees remind me that I'm still in Cali. I have the best of both worlds here..

Yep, blue skies..

And Lama's that live down the street.. I love it here!

Ok, so this weekend Aunt Louise is down visiting and she bought a cute little statue girl, to put out by Bobbi, and she asked if I could put a little color to her..

So I gave her just enough color. I gave her blonde hair and blue eyes of course, and I added a little black bunny like the one that Breanna just got and named "Bodie" after her Mama.

Sunday I picked Jacie up from staying the night with Breanna, and this was our ride home. I bought her some more bubbles, because she LOVES her some bubbles!

Ususally when I get home from taking the kids to school in the morning, this is who I have greeting me home.. "hello, Pearl"

"yeah, yeah, lady, get out already, I'm hungry!"

"Hurry up, I gotta kill some birds out in the field... maybe a little mice too"

"Oh yeah, mice sound delicious!!"

"Yeah, yeah, I love you too, now get out and feed me already!"

This was last nights project, I forgot to take a picture without the rocks on it. I was gonna do it this way, but decided I wanted color on it.. so...

I did this.

Ok, then Jacie and I gave ourselves a project for Valentines day. We decided this year, instead of buying cards and candy, we will make it more difficult and do it ourselves! So here are the candy roses.

 Then we finished with a little poem! hee, hee.

Anyway that is some of the things I thought I would share with you today. Hope you are having a marvalous Monday! :)

Enjoying my day..

This picture has nothing to do with todays blog, its here becuase Jacie is a cutie pie girl, thats all!

So I thought I would write this morning, cause I am feeling a little guilty.. just a little. This morning I left to take the kids to school and while I was out I headed out to get Jack's board for his Science experiment. Well, because Michaels doesn't  open until 9, I had to walk next door to one of my other favorite places to shop.. Target!! So, I thought I would grab some hairspray while I was there, and of course to kill time I had to walk around and check out the latest and greatest in the store. I went to the book section and the first book I see is called "One Thousand White Women." Well, being a "white woman" myself, I was intrigued by this title and read a little about this book. Of course it sucked me in, because it is a period piece and its about indians and white woman... and me being white, and 1/16 (give or take) American Indian, I thought perhaps this could be about my ancestors (ok, ok, this wasn't my thinking, I just thought it looked good, and it was on sale!). So, I picked it up, and headed straight to the register, because I was afraid I would find something else I couldn't live without and buy it.

After checking out, I still had some time to kill so I headed to the truck, pulled my jacket a little tighter (cause it was a little chilly this mornin'), and dove into my new novel! Well, it sucked me in right away! Once Michaels was open, I went in, grabbed what I needed and headed my book readin' butt back home!

After picking up the breakfast dishes and starting laundry I noticed we had a fire log left from the weekend. Gosh, what to do, what to do? Do I save that log, for the whole family to enjoy together, orrrrr do I get some pillows, a soft comfy blanket, cuddle up to the fire and read my new book with comfort and pure enjoyment??

Well, here I sit with my comfy fluffy pillows behind me, my slumbering dog laying next to me sharing my warm blanket, and a beautiful array of reds, blues and golds dancing in the fire place. Yes, yes, I feel a little guilty that I am at bliss without the kids and my gorgeous husband not here to enjoy it with me, but lets face it.. Mama can have a little delight on her own.. right?  Ohhhh, yes she can!!

So thats my post for today, take a little enjoyment when you can, and later spoil the whole family with love!

Moving on...

        So understandably I have had what you would call a rough month. I'm not really sure what to do with myself. I've had some bumps in my life, but this seems to be completely outta the park. One second your happy to be with the ones you love and having a happy moment, and then the next your down and out, and don't want to do anything but sit and stare at a wall. I don't want to fight depression, because I don't think its good to push it aside, yet I don't want to be depressed because... well... its depressing! I haven't really cried since New Years, I want to, to get it out and over with, but I feel like I have cried so much, I don't have any tears left. I want to pick up... move on... start a new... unfortunately when you love someone a whoooole lot, you can't really do that. It pretty much sucks. I'm just not really even sure how to express what I'm feeling, even if I was asked. All I could say is... I miss her.. I miss her really, really, bad. The thing that really sucks, is that this will never, ever, go away. Its a new life, and I really don't like this new life. Nothing can ever be the same. I will never be the Jen I used to be. Nothing will ever be the same, the moon looks different, the sunset is different, the way the sun shine feels is different, the way it feels to laugh is different, life is not the same. It will never, ever be the same. This is a hard concept to get used to. A lifetime of this is a long, long time. 

         I think to myself that I wouldn't want Bobbi to feel this way if it were me who went, and it pulls me out of it for a minute or so ..and then it comes back. It comes back when something reminds me of her.... and everything reminds me of her. I'm not used to being this down. This sad. This is nothing like I've ever been through. Its truly unexplainable. I'd hoped that with some time I would see that things can go on without her, because they HAVE to go on with out her. Well, yeah thats true, but it doesn't take away the pain of her absents. Nothing anyone does, or says will take this terrible feeling away. You prepare, and think about your grandparents, or even your parents going before you do, you know its going to hurt really bad, but you mentally prepare yourself. But, there are people you aren't prepared to let go of so soon. Bobbi was one of those people I knew would be here when  we were old.

        Now I'm not writing all of this to get sympathy, or bring anyone down. Ugh! I don't want sympathy, I just need this as an outlet. For some reason when I get it out and down it helps .. some. I don't need anyone to check on me, or uplifting words, I'll be alright, I get great words from the Bible. It helps me the most. I just need to vent, and go on. Now maybe I can go tackle the laundry now, yuck!





 

sicky.. tub time.. and herpes.

Ok, its been awhile but today I have nothing better to do than to get on my blog, and write. Why? Well, the last few weeks we haven't stopped, go, go, go. Then BOOM!!

Last night I wake up with the stomach flu. Ugh!! I will spare you the details, but it pretty much sucks. I slept on the couch, because I didn't want to wake my poor husband up, AND I don't want him to get it. He loves me, but I'm pretty sure he would draw the line with being puked on. Anyway, because I slept on the couch, my poor delicate, wide, hips, and back are SOOO sore.. like burning!!

Because my hips and back are burnin' I of course s-l-o-w-l-y get up and make my way to the beautiful bath tub. While in the bath tub I start thinking how funny it is that I atomatically get in the tub.

You see growing up our bath tub got a lot of use. Between three girls and my Mom we had to beat each other to the tub. Its all my Mom's fault really. When we were little and went to Mom about anything.. anything, she told us to take a bath, and that would help everything. "Mom, my tummy hurts"... "Oh, lets go poor you a bath".. "Moooom, my leg hurts" "Ok, go take a bath"... "Mom, I have a hang nail", "Go get in the bath".... "Mom, Bobbi, won't let me go with her", "You should go take a bath".... "Mom, the turtle bit me" "Ok, after I get outta the tub, you can get in."

Ok, you get the point, no matter what was going on, good or bad, we took a bath and it usually did the trick. Now when my kids come to me with their problems I stick em' in the bath... whether they like it or not!

So lets see what else have I been up to.. My Aunt Helen came out from Omaha to visit us for a week. We had a lot of fun with her. We went shopping, and had lunches, took her to San Diego, and had her over to the Sosemans for Italian food, and the Crippens for Chinese food. Most of all we were able to just visit with her, and she enjoyed our 80 degree weather. It was so nice to spend time with her, we don't get to see her very often. 

Yep, things have been go, go, going, but today I'm stoppin' and resting. Hopefully I won't get any surprise visitors, cause I will scar them!! OH! I almost forgot, I think I'm getting a fever blister on my lip.. yuck!.. Am I the only one that instantly thinks that I have herpes on my lip? I am? I thought so. ((sigh))