Ok, ok, I am warning you, that I am about to write about nothing again. SO, if you want to be bored, then by all means keep reading. If you have more important things to do, then stop reading and do something more important.

So, I am very, very tired this morning, and I have stopped and sat down on the couch relaxing and felt like writing on my blog about nothing. I mean there are a lot of things that are driving me nuts, but I'm not really in the mood to write about them. I mean you let out something that bothers you and there is sure to be someone that completely disagrees, which means you will piss em off, and they are bound to give there opinion. I'm not really in the mood for that.

So, I'm about to turn 35. When I was 25, I thought 35 sounded sooo old! Now that I am about to be 35, I really am ok with it. I mean besides the fact that I am having issues with my knees, back, ankles, and hips, I feel GREAT!! Ok, all ailments aside, physically I have "old lady symptoms" but mentally and emotionally I have never felt better! I have more happiness, and I'm in more control of my life then I have ever been. My Mom always told me that her thirty's were the best. I thought she was crazy! How in the world can you think that being in your thirty's is that great? I mean in your twenties your young, your on your own, your basically starting your adult life in the world. Well, let me tell ya, the older you get the better you get to know yourself. I mean when I look back at myself in High School, I was a mess. The future terrified me, what was I gonna do, where was I gonna go in life. I couldn't make a decision if my life depended on it. I was a ticking time bomb as far as emotions went, and I just couldn't control anything! I thought that no one understood me, but in reality I didn't understand myself. I worried about other people, and now I think about more important things.

Now as a woman in my mid 30's ((gulp)). I know what I want, where I'm going, and how I'm going to get there. Sure there will be curve balls along the way, but I know I will figure it out as I go. Some will be fast balls and I will strike out, some I can bunt and figure out what to do on the way to first, some I will hit outta the park! (sorry softball is creeping back on me lol). Of course it helps that I married someone that I can lean on, go to, and talk things out with. That is a huge factor in it all. I mean really I think Jonny, has given me the courage, and confidence to tackle things and keep on going. End the end everything will be all right. We always remind each other that God will lead the way, and make it well.

Having kids however does throw in a wrench into a lot of things. Not the kids themselves, but the decisions you have to make for them at sometimes a seconds notice. In fact a seconds notice is usually better, than having to make a decision before next week. If you make it in that second, then its done, over, you made the decisions and hope that you made the right one. The ones that you have think about, and think about, and think about, are the worst decisions. You think one way, and then the cons in that thinking, and the pros. Back and forth and how this could eventually cause terrible doom in your childs future, and they will hate you for it, and need therapy and tell their spouse how you made this terrible choice for them and they just HATED you for that, and will never get over it. You see? You see, how kids and the choices you make for them can potentially put YOU and your child in a nut house? Having kids, is the best possible thing in the entire world.. it is also like the book I'm reading "No wonder my parents drank." Which is a hilarious book, written by the comedian Jay Mohr!

Anyway, I am looking forward 35, and what another year of maturity brings. Maybe things will funner, I am planning on being more adventurous this year. Whoa, whoa, I'm not takin' about hiking the Alps or anything, I'm talkin' tryin' new restaurants, going into stores I've never been in before. Trust me people this is adventurous for me. I am NOT a rock climber, or sky diver, although I like to watch those fools risk their own foolish lives! hee hee. Ok, I'm done with babble, I am tired and putting myself to sleep again. Anyway, embrace your age, be happier, and lively! Have some fun!